Viscera

June 29, 2020
A photograph of bare trees against a cloudy sky
Photo courtesy of the author

for Rachelle 4/27/2020

Our moms were widows before they met our fathers.
Their hair blue-black, their hands already chapped, caressed
by Inglis die-cast tooling  Bren light machine guns, Mauser
ammunition, or Browning  Hi-Power handguns, torpedo warhead
casings, or reining sorrels’ leather when they made mountains home.
Their first loves shot, stabbed,  or lost in war.

While our fathers picked cotton  for a penny-a-pound,
steeped in dust friction-screamed like cats in winds untamed.
Rode fence to make it through school,  GI Bills or not.
Married our moms from wingman  blind dates,
worked side by side in the hospital in the peak of polio,
then made our broadcloth shifts by hand for school,
dragging thread through eyes, aiming needles  clean, while
our widow moms were current-fried  in hospitals, asylums.

By then, they’d most likely lost three or four kids
                                    before any survived the early years.  Those of us
                                    who did, maybe never  told their names, or told
                                    so often we believed we remembered  them with us
                                    at the table they were never big enough to seat.

Our work permits in hand  at twelve, fields, like oceans,
called us.  Factories, registers, bars, counters, tables, horses –
but always the fields.  You know the deal, back gone. The former field-
worker retraining jump-started some of us  from post-middle
school labor vacancies  to college, by nearly thirty.

For those of us, widowed just like our moms, with no one
like our dads to pick up our after.  Who move through this
like walking rows, straight to the end,  straight for draws
on jugs, water, plain solutions tapped.

For those of us who must write, who can’t sleep now,  who do know
people who have died,  are dying.  Who have always known
people who have died, are dying,  since the little ones who
preceded us as infants anyway  and all the way here, if no one
else nearby will, we will still  lose somebodies.

It’s the viscera talking now, the nerves, guts,  bombs like sinew,
blue-red deep inside entrails, webs, mussed-up neurons,
neural tissue, breaking brains, remains of hearts,  like Chiclets
chewed up, spit, forked,  forgotten.

Allison Adelle Hedge Coke’s books include Streaming, Burn, and Effigies III. Her recent awards include the Library of Congress Witter Bynner Fellowship, the First Jade Nurtured SiHui Female International Poetry Award, a Fulbright Fellowship, and the Dan & Maggie Inouye Distinguished Chair in Democratic Ideals at the University of Hawai'i. A distinguished professor of creative writing at UC Riverside, she has worked in fields, fishing, and factories. She guest-edited the “After Alcatraz” issue of WLT devoted to literary activism (Autumn 2019).

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